Oh hooyah...

Went to see Bottom 5 LIVE last night at the Empire. Hmmmm... how to tell you what it was like... the first half was fantastic. They actually returned to the flat, BUT... it wasn't what you're thinking because it was set in the bathroom, great set tho, and absolutely fecking huge! The storyline was a little iffy at times, but the gags were great and seeing Rik Mayall's arse cheeks more than made up for what was a quite simply awful second half, with more or less a rehash of the show from 2 years ago. They did the whole 'What the fuck, fuck, fuck happened there???' joke again, they even ADMITTED it, and they also dragged out that shite 'Pants' song again. The audience wasn't that impressed by this second half. First half - great, second half - god no. Rik and Ade, you REALLY got to drop the live act now. Just leave it at a nice round 5. It's a nice number, and no-one will ever hate you for not touring again. I mean hey, i'm like one of your biggest fans ever, but I can still tell a shitty and rushed plot when I see one. And what I witnessed last night was a shitty and rushed plot. if you DO ever tour again, PLEASE get back in the flat. It was a catalyst for some of the greatest comedy you guys ever pulled off. Do that and you COULD get back to form. But it won't promise anything...

And me? I'm good. I'm pretty good. better than ever now that the production side of University is now out of the way. So i've just got 3 essays and a dossier I need to have finished by the end of December. But I gotta admit that the time I have now is SO much more than I have had over the past month. This past month has been extremely stressful, and I really haven't enjoyed University at all. But now that shitty production project is gone, I might be able to chirp up a little more.

I was walking down to Hanover Street from the Cathedral yesterday while listening to Rush, live in Rio, and for some reason I got this overcoming feeling. Like something good was going to happen. Not immediately, but in the future. I mean the start of this year was amazing. I had the greatest start to a year than I have ever had before. I underwent a soul-searching exercise, received a beautiful baby brother, and started going out with Sarah. It was all very happy, and then July came... recent times haven't been so bad but Uni HAS been very stressful. I feel like fucking Steven Spielberg in that place. But yesterday something came over me, and for some reason I envisioned a bright next few months. I don't know what to make of that, but I know that back in either May or June I told Natasha that i could see a very bleak period coming up for me (Which I then mentioned when Sarah split up with me, because I was right), and I was right. But I feel like i'm FINALLY coming out of it, and the end of this year, and the start of 2004 will be a good un'. I have no reason to believe this, except my gut instinct, which has never failed me before. I am looking forward to what the future holds. As for 2003... It's been a mixed year with its fair share of arseholes and saviours, but I think i'll get around to talking about my year in full come New Years. Remember last year with my 'I don't believe in resolutions, but if I DID...' blog? Well that'll be back in force, and boy do I have a fantastic fucking list coming up for you lot to salivate over...

This update was dedicated to my homegirl, Jenny, from uni, who told me she stumbled over my blog after checking my profile out. She also told me she thinks I could write an autobiography on my life, just from what she read of my last year and a half on this dreadful planet. Jen, if EVER I made it famous I WILL write an autobiography. And not one of those shitty ones which are written by someone else where 90% of it is pure fabricated bullshit, but one more like Mick Foley's 'Have a Nice Day!', which was genuinely written 100% by the Foley himself. I would look forward to that day if it ever comes, but while i'm still at my working class level, there's no chance. But who knows? If I get my degree, maybe hit the big time, maybe skidaddle over to Hollywood for the rest of my life (Now steady on there old chap!), then it could happen... and all of my dearest closest friends would be the first to receive copies. But be VERY WARNED. What i'd have to say would change ALL of your perceptions of me. I'm not who you think I am. There's more to me than meets the eye, and the only person who knows me for who I REALLY am is my little brother Lee. The greatest guy I ever did have the fortune to meet (hey, we COULD have been seperated when we were babies!). I'm not trying to scathe fact of the matter is NONE of us know anyone for who they really are, and very rarely will we ever. I myself don't know anyone fully, because no-one i've ever met, girlfriends included, have ever been 100% genuine with me. Even our Lee isn't 100% with me. But he's open enough for me to know I can trust him on anything...

And talking about ex-girlfriends, I stumbled across Gemma in the Barracuda on tuesday night. Well, more like SHE stumbled across me. She was very drunk, and you could tell in the way she kept trying to rape my mouth with her tongue. She has her own place now as well, so i'm sure a quick fumble under the covers was on her mind (Trust me, she's VERY up for it). I didn't fall for the bait tho, because I know she isn't one for the casual thing, and I know for a fact that she's one ex I never want to get back with. So having sex with her, I just KNOW for a fact that she'd think we could save what we once had. Whereas I know we couldn't. We're too different, and it'd never work. She has the most amazing set of tits ever tho. :D

And finally, I want to ask of anyone who reads this blog, will one of you out there download a Rush song for me? Download... 'Peaceable Kingdom' from the Vapor trails album. One of you download it, give it a listen, and tell me what you honestly think. I really want to spread the legs, er, love of rush and get them out there... even if they have been going now for 30 years. They're amazing! Someone download that song and tell me by auto2112@hotmail.com what you think! PLEASE! I'm going to keep this plea up, until someone does it, so get downloading!

Rush - Everyday Glory

In the house where nobody laughs
And nobody sleeps
In the house where love lies dying
And the shadows creep
A little girl hides, shaking,
With her hands on her ears
Pushing back the tears, 'til the pain disappears

Mama says some ugly words
Daddy pounds the wall
They can fight about their little girl later
Right now they don't care at all
No matter what they say...
No matter what they say...

EVERYDAY PEOPLE
EVERYDAY SHAME
EVERYDAY PROMISE
SHOT DOWN IN FLAMES

EVERYDAY SUNRISE
ANOTHER EVERYDAY STORY
RISE FROM THE ASHES ---
A BLAZE OF EVERYDAY GLORY

In the city where nobody smiles
And nobody dreams
In the city where desperation
Drives the bored to extremes

Just one spark of decency
Against a starless night
One glow of hope and dignity
A child can follow the light
No matter what they say
No matter what they say...

If the future's looking dark
We're the ones who have to shine
If there's no one in control
We're the ones who draw the line
Though we live in trying times ---
We're the ones who have to try
Though we know that time has wings ---
We're the ones who have to fly

Song of the moment: Rush - Freeze (Part IV of the 'Fear' Trilogy)
Movie of the moment: The Jolson Story