Remember a week or two back I said:

Give me all your strength. I'm at the beginning of something which could take a very long time (No, not that bloody script!), and i need as much help I can get. You cannot know what it is, for it is something I must do on my own. If I accomplish my feat, you will be sure to hear about it (And trust me, you WILL know when it happens). Although not many of you have any idea what i'm talking about, I can tell you that this means more to me than anything out there, including fucking university, including whatever future prospects I may undertake, and anything else that resembles anything remotely similar to success.

be with me for my own little journey. i need you all there. Thank you. And no, i'm not drunk.

Yeah, that. Well, it's fell through. And I still won't say what it is. It's not embarrassing, but it's just too personal to me, and for once I don't feel like it's something I can just put on my blog. The right people WILL hear about it, but the rest of you, sorry. It's just something I have to keep to myself.

All I will say about it is that it's a shame, but for once, i'm not going to let myself get dragged down too far. I think you'll agree that this second half of the year has not been kind to me at all, so I guess it'd be pretty fucking dumb of me to bring myself down even further! But hey, if you're reading this, and i've said this a thousand times, but if you are reading this and you've got your desire set on something, then shoot for the sky! :) And never let go. We're here for one lifetime, about 70 - 80 years, and don't you think you'll regret it on your deathbed when you realise that you never took every chance you had? Exactly. It's just stupid. So realise your mistakes, learn from and do what your heart desires... BUT!!! Listen to those around you. They're there for a reason. Even if you're one of these who thinks, "IT'S MY LIFE!!! I CAN LIVE IT HOW I WANT!!!" always acknowledge that these people who question your choices are doing it for a sole reason; because they care for you.

And on that bombshell, and on a totally different sidenote, it's just over a week until 'The Kids of The Krazy House' go on their Xmas night out!!! :D I'd link to their, and our site, but I guess it's kinda on a 'know' status. As in, you 'know' them, and you ARE them! God, don't I sound like a member of the Dead Poet's Society??? :D

Song of the moment: Radiohead - Creep
Movie of the moment: Natural Born Killers