just finished reading Pete's last two days worth of blogs, and I must say I was pleasantly intrigued by what he had to say. Nothing in particular, more the style. I like it. It's sweet. He maybe pushes it a little too far at times, but he more than makes up for it with the rest... I eagerly wait to see where this blog goes next year.

My happiness at the moment would be complete with a ladies love. However, since Sarah split up with me, i'm finding it so hard to garner anything that even remotely resembles love from another woman and it made me feel today like I should just give up for now. That's what I did after me and gemma split up. Ya have to get over not being with someone, and when that happens, you can try getting someone else, or just forget it and try and enjoy single life for a while. With Gemma, I more or less got over her instantly, while with Sarah it took a hell of a long time to get over her, before I decided to try and ease the pain with someone elses love, and now i'm at the point where i've given up on it. Women out there don't seem to be falling for me, and they most definitely aren't making any attempt themselves to hit on me, so i've decided now, to just give up chasing. It worked last time with Gemma and Sarah in that, the moment I stopped hunting, I all of a sudden just struck it lucky with each of them. Gemma was no accident but Sarah... looking back, it's kinda amazing how I managed to get with that girl.

Anywho, i'm out of the game for now. Experience has taught me that when you stop hunting, everything falls into your lap. So let's see what happens. There's a new year coming soon and the feel of a fresh start will no doubt do wonders for a mind like mine. What will it bring? What will it take away? Who knows... but i'm looking forward to it after this taxing year. 2003 is going to go down as the toughest, and yet at the same time most rewarding year i've ever experienced. Would I do it all again? I honestly don't know. It feels like the good points don't outweigh the bad, and vice versa. Like at the end of it all I can look back and think, "I can't say it's been a good or bad year. It's just been one hell of a year." Don't get me wrong, there were far more better times than bad, but the bad times for me, they WERE bad. They're something i'm never going to forget either. But at least i've pulled through them and am now looking forward to the new year. I just sometimes wish this one could have been better, because if it had, it would likely have been the best i've ever lived.

Song of the moment: Simple Minds - Don't You Forget About Me
Movie of the moment: The Usual Suspects