So Big Brother 5 finished last night, and while I didn't agree with the winner (Jason should have won all the way), she was at least the best female housemate this year; despite the fact she's really a man. Ain't that ironic? The last female housemate to leave the house this year was also the least female of them all. Funny, but true. But at least the series as a whole was fantastic, the best so far. I know there's a lot of you out there who disagree with the show, but for me, it's the ONLY TV show out there. Until Big Bro 6, the only TV i'll watch is either the news, football, or re-runs of old cartoon's / comedy shows I like. Modern TV is shit, and always will be. Big Brother is my one exception to the rule, and sometimes is the one thing that keeps me going sometimes! :) But it's over now, and I just have to twiddle my thumbs until the next series comes around. Who knows, maybe yours truly will end up finding himself on there! :P We can only wish...

A few people have been picking up on me seeming different lately. I didn't know what they were talking about a week or two ago, but just very, VERY recently (like yesterday), I started feeling lonely. Not friendship wise, i've got more friends than you can shake a dildo at, I guess it's stemming back to that person who can be closer than even your best friend. I for one know that having a girlfriend / boyfriend / animal, as a partner isn't everything, but once you've tasted it that first time, and then a second, and so on, after losing it, you always seem to demand more of it. Or don't. I mean I DID after breaking up with Sarah, then for about 6 or 7 months I was happy and single, fine with my status, and now, I dunno, i've just been thinking a lot really... just get on with it and see what happens really isn't it? Go with the flow, and be ready to take on whatever comes your way... but boy does it come after LONG periods of nothing...

A lot of confused people in my life at the moment. Hey, maybe i'm in that boat too! :D But seriously, from the top of my head, I can think of at least 4 people close to me who are fucking themselves up over certain situations in their lives. They'll pull through it, I know they're strong enough to do that. I'm more curious as to how they're going to go about doing it that's all... I have faith in them though, and i'm sure they won't fuck things up for themselves, at least anymore than they already are! :) Have belief in yourselves, stick with what you know best, and it'll all come flooding home to you just how much you can accomplish if you put your mind to it.